I look back at the path my life has taken and I am grateful for the good, the bad, the absolutely incredible, and the painstakingly disastrous. In the past three years I have experienced the range of all these emotions. I look back and think how did a little girl like me from the place I’m from have the opportunity to experience so much greatness in a short period of time. Seriously.
The kids from my neighborhood are the statistics you read about. Many of them are dead. Quite a few of them are in jail, on the streets, on drugs, prostituting, stealing, and all manner of things you can’t even imagine. How did I get out? How was I so lucky? I give thanks for parents who pushed me to believe that I could be greater than that which surrounded me, that I could cheat destiny and create my own. How did I come to play and love the bass guitar and how is it that this instrument has brought me so much joy, opened up so many doors, taken me so many places, and perhaps saved my life?
Life hasn’t always been joyful. I haven’t always been joyful. I am not always joyful. I worry about the future. I think about the past. I sometimes ignore the present. I am a contradiction. I am an anomaly. I am an inspiration. I am a miracle. I am ordinary. But in all of it, I am thankful. I wake up and listen to the morning song of the birds and sometimes I join them in singing. Sometimes I just listen. I am thankful that I have the opportunity to listen and appreciate that song. I am thankful for songs. I am thankful for the people who are reading these words, whoever you are, wherever you are. I am thankful for the simplest and basic of all things like the ability to see, to talk, to think, to walk, to type on a keyboard that somebody on the other side of the world assembled. In everyday life we are assisted by people we’ll never know.
Everything we experience and use on a daily basis started as an idea in the mind of another human being and was crafted by even more human beings and we will never know those people and never be able to say thank-you to them so I just say thank-you to the wind and pray that the message is carried to the thousands of people who support a lifestyle most of them don’t have the opportunity to experience. I am not worthy of such grace from God, from the universe, from my ancestors, from wherever it may be coming. I think about the lineage of me and where I came from and how many people it took to live, to survive, to fight in order that I may do so and I give thanks for their perseverance, for their strength, for their courage and for their undying faith.
There are so many things to give thanks for. There are so many people who helped me along the way. You may know me as this bass player who has toured the world with stars and played under bright lights for thousands at a time but I am just a human, being. And I am working at being the best that I can, and I fall short, and I fail and I win and I lose and I cry and I struggle and I fight and pray and push and pull and in all of it, I give thanks.